I don’t wanna make it, I just wanna….


I never felt like I fitted in at school. I was not one of the cool kids, I wasn’t sporty, I wasn’t clever…I just was.
Sometimes I envied those who were in the in crowd but mostly I existed on the boundaries of it all. Friends with people of all the groups but not part of them.
Years later, when I was accepting who I was and where I stood in the world, I bumped into a girl from school (I went to school many towns and miles away from Aberdeen, so this was unusual to meet someone from back then). She was one of the in crowd. A popular girl but we had always got on despite that.
We got to talking and she said something that has stuck in my mind ever since.
“You haven’t changed a bit”
I hadn’t at least as far as my outer image was concerned. I had got older, fatter, balder but she saw the same spirit within me that I had only just started to accept at that time.
I didn’t want to fit in. I would not have been me if I tried. Not in a “fuck you” to the world, just in a “I’m happy like this”.
This song was the first time I heard MCR. Not this video but this song and the energy that flows through it.
Be you. Do what you want, what makes you happy. Treat everyone the way you want to be treated. With very few exceptions, the world will treat you the same way right back.
You are an individual and as such you should celebrate that.
Good morning world…its a good day.

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